Currently Listening Closer By Josh Groban My Confession see related

I've had one of the craziest past two or three days of my whole entire life! Not even joking...
I kind of had a mental breakdown on tuesday night as well. I laugh now, but i was stressed to max level, and my faith and strength was definitly tested. I thank God for continually keeping me on my toes in my faith, and bringing me back to a point of surrender. That is def. what He wants, and which i fail to give Him more often then not.

I'm being streched mentally with school... 4 tests in one week is inane!
I'm being streched with my family situation, so definite crazy stuff going on.
I'm being streched finacially... gahhh i HATE money! and NOT having it lol.
And most importantly, I'm being stretched spiritually. I had a very deep conversation with a non-believer friend of mine a couple nights ago. Challenging me, and hopefully challenged her. I literally felt wrung out afterwards.

So... God is challenging me at all levels... all at one time! Please pray for my sanity lol!

If this is what it takes to have a more intimate depth with God... I'll take it.

Jackie

   HAPPY VALENTINES DAY EVERYBODY!

Currently Listening Soundtrack A Whole New World see related

         * I pray that my eyes be enlightened...
       And the shimmer of His essence encompass me.*

                                                          Jacklyn 

Currently Listening The Open Door By Evanescence see related

  I am the lie...

  I'm so confused... yet i see so clearly. If i didn't see, would i feel so much guilt and shame?
  If i was pleasantly nieve, my ache of truth would not be resonating through my body. Its 
  truth,  however, that  plagues every corner of my mind. I'm living in lies. I am the lie...

                                                                                   Jacklyn

Currently Listening The Answer to the Question By Tree63 Blessed Be Your Name see related

Reflections...

    Sweet Fellowship. Thats what i long for. The canyons in my soul yearn for you Lord, Jesus. I miss you. I long to be at your side. Embracing you; I reach out for you and your love. I grope in the dark, wondering where you are. I know your there eluding me to come closer... into sweeter fellowship with You.

Such words reflect my deep desire for intimacy w/ Jesus...

"How would I have known that I was lost
   Had You not searched and found me?
How would I have known that i was blind
   Had You not made me see?
How would I have known my bleeding
   'Til You bound Your love around me?
How would I have known my slavery
   Until You set me free??"

Such words reflect the truth of Christ that has set me free...

"Come, let us return to the Lord. He has torn us to pieces but he will heal us; He has injured us but He will bind up our wounds." -Hosea 6:1

Such words reflect my brokenness and healing side by side with my Jesus...

"You give and take away
My heart will choose to say: Lord blessed by your name."

And finally, such words reflect my heart of satisfaction and fufillment in my Jesus... the peace He has yet again brought me too. Blessed be HIS NAME!!

Jackie

Currently Listening A Diamond in the Rough: The Jennifer Knapp Collection By Jennifer Knapp see related

 Wow...

  Finals... my stressful ones are

  OVER!! yaahhhh!

 God... simply put...is breaking me...

jAcKiE